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I Cried On Watermelon Seeds.

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Gullible is the word to describe this story.

I’ve always love the sweet taste of watermelon since young. I have the privilege to eat one whole watermelon by myself every night while watching movies when I’m in Miri because my dad plants em’. Lucky me eh.

Here comes the story. 7 years old, con by my mama on a sunny afternoon. Conveniently sliced watermelon is being served and my brother and I was indulging the soft sweet redness of it. You know how boys can be sloppy eaters when they are young. I swallowed some seeds and told my mama with a bit of a shock. My mama teamed up with my little brother and told me that:

“James, soon you’ll see watermelon sprout from the top of your head.”

What do you expect an innocent boy to think? I took it literally of course! I stopped eating immediately and had a mental picture in my head that how ugly I would look with watermelon sprouting on top of my head. I lower my head and put my arms around my head. From a quiet tear to a slight cry.

After having a fair share of laughing my mama convinced that she was only joking and she had to explain what will happen to the seed before I stop crying. Boo!

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I believe I was melted in a dream.

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I took an evening nap. Something I don’t normally do but lack of sleep recently charmed me into it.

The dream took place in a vehicle(looks like a car but size of a bus) going towards some nature expedition. The setting was lighted up with clear blue skies and brilliant shades of green along side the road. There were other people in the car but no one in particular I know except the one that I was, still and will always be madly in love for.

The funny thing for her to step into this dream is because I’ve not seen her or talk to her for more than half a year now. She was sitting in front of me. When the vehicle stopped and the driver went down to the toilet, I went in front and sat next to her.

We had a small talk but I believe I melted in my dream when she expressed that she wanted to spend some time with me in the following days.

I woke up.

“I had a dream. It’s a very beautiful dream with the girl I was, still and will be madly in love for.”

World Stage

Accidental Porn-stars

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Accidental Porn-stars – Nude pictures/videos of individuals expose on the internet without individual’s consent

Case #1
If you’re being filmed secretly then I feel sorry for you. (I blame you slightly to not see this coming, your ex can burn in hell.)

Case #2
You agree to it and you find it thrilling. Sorry ladies & gentlemen. Filming was designed to be shown and you asked for it.

The tremendous spike in recent accidental porn-stars are also what technology advancement has brought us into. We would’ve think twice before snapping ourselves nude because you damn well know that the photo studio where you take your film to develop keeps at least 2 copies. These days we can view it on a computer till someone decides to leak it out to the world through the wonderful technologies human has built.

Welcome to the digital world and if you’ve agree to any filming activities of your scandalous nights, you just might be another victim soon. Just hope it doesn’t land in my inbox.

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6 – 1 = 5 puppies left.

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4 days away from home and living in a peaceful, serenity place where Angels sing to the rise of sun and spirits dance when the moonlight shines. El Sanctuary is the place I am at now. I’m here because of Diode Camp, school leavers camp for May 11th to 16th.

There are so many wonderful things for me to talk about this place for example; the food here has never failed to tingle my taste buds. The puppies lying around the pavement has never failed to capture my attention. The fresh air has never failed to make me feel much more calm. Even a million pictures can never convey my thoughts to you about this rustic place. You have gotta visit this place yourself.

Sadly though, the entry that I brought today ties in with a tragic. I’m here to bring a teary news that the 6 adorable golden retriever puppies that I’ve only get to know about for the past 4 days has caught up with an unfortunate event. 1 of them has chocked himself to death. After eating rapidly, he took a few steps away from the crowd and fall flat on the floor catching his last breath.

I did not get to see this unfortunate event. I believe I will definitely tear if I were to caught the death of the puppy in front of my eyes. Vincent, who is the owner of the little patch of Heaven tried his very best to save him but still God decided to bring him home after living on Earth for 2 months and 4 days. Pictures are all I can share now to remember the adorable puppy by. Rest in peace.

“Life is short, praise more, forgive more, love more.”

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Translated Anger

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Calm I have really tried but failed,
thus the creation of this poem.
Read on if only you’re prepared,
translated anger can be nasty.

Fuck, I just had to say it out,
you have brought shit into my life.
Are you stupid or retarded,
to have ignored all my clear shown angers.

Fuck, how much more blunt can you be,
killing me hardly with your actions.
Didn’t I made a confession,
but your bloody brain is a piece of shit.

Fuck, my luck to have a friend like you,
full of bullshit and alibis.
Learn how to be fucking truthful,
you suck beyond words can explain.

Fuck, I had enough of this game,
I will not be toy by you asshole.
Stop trying to be a fucking saint,
I mean it, stop hurting me bitch.

 

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First time on radio.

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I was on the BFM radio this afternoon talking about YEP (Young Entrepreneurship Programme). It’s my first time doing a live radio interview. The last time I heard my voice over the radio was when I was 10. It was a recording of my first runner-up prize for interstate story telling competition. The only picture I could dig up is this.

Radio interview is far less intimidating compared to giving a speech on stage. Mainly because there ain’t a thousand pair of eyes staring at you. But I have to admit I was a bit nervous when Freda Liu said “We’ll be on air in 1 minute.” I can feel my stomach getting sucked in to create a black hole of it’s own. She announced again that there’s 30 seconds left. Luckily I was able to shake it off at the last 5 seconds that she was counting down. Below is how the session went. Don’t quite like it but it’s definitely a good experience.

BFM – Young Entrepreneurship Programme

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I’m quite in love with Utada Hikaru

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Yes I am quite in awe of Utada Hikaru. She recently released the album ‘This Is The One’. (pictured above)

I took some time to listen to the whole album and I must say she’s definitely my type. No one writes songs quite like she does. They are catchy, upbeat and meaningful.

Such art is far lost in the Hollywood pop scene. Everyone indulges in lustful R&B songs, pointless pop songs, vulgar rap songs that just makes my ear bleed.

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James Reads: Screw it, Let’s do it!

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I’m not a keen reader to tell the truth, but a friend of mine encouraged me to read this book and he took the liberty to borrow me the book that he had borrowed from his friend.

Within the first chapter, the book has already caught my attention. Richard Branson has always been mold to be bold ever since he could start to walk. His drive to break World-records and the feats that he has achieved so far is because of how his family brought him up. His mother would ask him to race across the field with grass taller than himself while the parents drove all the way back. How many Asian family would allow such things to their kids? Most Asian families are too over protective with their children. Even the slightest fall or knocking on something would send their mothers screaming from the other end of the room.

Most Asian family over protect their kids. They don’t want them to grow up, they want to keep them safe in a bubble. And often times this only leads to destruction. They are too timid to try anything or do anything. They expect to be spoon fed their whole entire life.

Base on the title of Richard Branson’s book. Let me challenge you to “Screw it, Let’s do it!” to everything you face in life!

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My Eternal Bliss

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Met have I not but saw her in picture,
fair she was with looks so divine pure.
Clouds my heart but I was young & unsure,
little did I know, she had me captured.

Knowing her down the years was luck in play,
defined my reason to live everyday.
Shattered it did to find she’s not to stay,
feelings cocooned just waiting to decay.

Time was gracious, years ticked for only 5,
11 hours later she will arrive.
Swiftly as fast as wheels can turn I drive,
happiest four days with her footsteps in my life.

She’s far greater than Cuthbert or Jolie,
Spins my world & lights my day endlessly.
5,000 miles I’ll swim to her gladly,
to seek for her love before heavenly.

Time was gracious yet again, I counted 3,
her presence brings peace, I tear & thank Thee.
Confess my epic love she let me be,
stop have I, to search for the flawless key.

Her thoughts voiced out indeed I am lucky,
to have her inked my empty history.
Smother I did, unintentionally,
You will always be my eternal bliss.

“Still I’ll be darn to have not date you in this lifetime.”