Colours is really a wonderful thing if you actually stop by and notice them.

Take a look around you… How the vibrant skies choose their colours and mood to suit the ever changing face of the earth. Look into the horizon, notice the soothing shades of green that lies atop of each other dancing in the wind. Spin around, take some time to be amazed by the ever changing colours of the streets.

Painting colours to a rainbow? Weird as it seems huh… Did you know that humans were only able to identify 4 colours out of the rainbow way back in the stone age? It’s either our eyes actually evolved or I guess they just decided to add more shades of colour names into their colour wheel. Hence we have 7 shades of colour in a rainbow known today. I bet you can’t even state the colours of the rainbow now in order!

Here you go: Red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo and violet.

So back to the main question. Why paint colours that are already there to a rainbow?

I have a dear friend or should I say, I had a dear friend. I’m sitting here pondering and reading at the first line for quite sometime before I proceed on writing. How did a dear friend turn sour so early? Ahh.. the series of unfortunate events and mistakes and somewhere along the line I did offended her without noticing. But hey, I was young and shallow back then!

Hmm.. how did wonderful colours came about to link to this dear friend of mine? She’s a great girl. Ever so caring and brilliant. So caring up to a point she sacrifices. This is where I don’t find it noble. Giving up your colours of life and painting it for others. Humans being selfish is a bad trait but then we all have to be self-centered at some point. It’s a dog eat dog world out there.

While these teachings might be the perfect role model for everyone but do find a balance. Everyone deserves to be happy and it won’t come till you want to pursue your own happiness. I have to admit that I was really happy for quite sometime too over some personal reasons but I’ll live it through, I just have to start filling my own cup and stop running away. My dear, start painting colours into your rainbow. I think I know you well enough to say that I’ve not seen you really happy. You’re always sour upon something you can just simply learn to ‘let go’.

Deny, ignore, run, neglect, abandon…

Sad to say I’ve not been the usual self for quite sometime. A long time actually… I didn’t ask for this but you know how fragile humans can be at times and they just can’t get out of that diseased bubble. Looking away at the real world drenched and soak till the flesh rots and decay.

As some of you might know, last month was my birthday month. It’s a really bad day for my birthday to fall on a good Friday. Everyone was literally at the church from day till night and there ain’t no party for me. So seeing how bad 2007 started till my birthday it really makes me wonder why am I still here. I have to say there isn’t really much for me to look forward to except for the upcoming Jazz Festival this weekend.

Hold me, thrill me, kiss me please. Gotta wake up from this reverie and taste the sun sweet berries of the earth again. Praying and hoping things we get better… God does always seem to send Angels to save me. I’m really thankful for His grace!

A dear friend said she’ll be dropping to visit me for a few days. She couldn’t decide until she realize that she lost her ticket to another destination. (God’s grace?) She’s the other person that I’m really looking forward to meet up after decaying for so long. Although she spent only four days in Miri, I must say she made me stop running away from myself and started thinking of filling that un-shattered cup of mine. I could’ve do it myself but I guess I was just weak, very weak.

I could talk more about how interesting she is, like the wonderful chats at night, her short yoga lesson for me, the way she put on her make-ups, how she see things as they are, what she wants… I think a short glimpse for you all is enough. I’ll shut here. Anymore than that would make me sound like I’m obsess with her.

How ironic, I had the best 4 days of my life last year and I’m getting it just before my birthday month ends this year. Gotta love myself more!

One thing that bothers me a lot. M’sians are quite uptight! Why do I say that? In everything we do we cannot afford to “lose face” and also we cannot take jokes as jokes. We are just too sensitive over everything. Seriously, I think this is the number one factor why we aren’t progressing or moving forward.

Zoolander the movie. If you have not get a chance to watch it, that’s because it’s ban in Malaysia. For those of you who had watched it, you’ll understand why they ban it in Malaysia. They actually took an old Chinese man to act as the president of Malaysia! To me, I think it’s a great sense of humor. Dr. Mahathir should even laugh at it! I don’t see it as a negative impact.

Let’s take a look at the positive side of it. It’s gonna boost our popularity and further mark our country on the map. They have put different ethnicity as the president of USA and the tragedy, war, natural causes that has wiped out the White House numerous times. That’s how rest of the World learn about USA.
They don’t take humor and insults personally. We have to learn to see things from different perspectives… the positive side of everything!

For the internet junkies… I’m sure you’ve heard about the Singaporean girl who suicide just because of leaked sex videos that was contained in the phone when she lost it. She chose to end her life because of how negative the community perceived her. Sex is a natural human behavior. Paris Hilton embraces her sex videos online. Heck she was the one who wanted it to happen! Look how much money she is churning now… how much popularity she has gotten herself into. We need to lay back and start looking at things the positive way.

Everyone feels embarrassment but it’s how we take it and overcome it to turn ourselves better and stronger.

“There is always a brighter side we can choose to stand upon.”

There, just about a few minutes ago. I was talking about my cousins relationship and marriage stuff with dad. Before finishing the topic he asked if I had a girlfriend. I shook my head. He then told me that I should get one for myself. I said ‘worried that I couldn’t get one?’. He explained that it’s not because of marriage sake. But I should start building one now because I’m not young anymore. He added that he and mum ‘pak tow’ for 8 years before getting married.

In my mind… is it really necessary for the ‘break-in’ period? Does ‘break-in’ happen before courtship even begins? Must everyone spend at least 5 years just to figure out the compatibility? How about knowing a person so well, you then decided to have each other for the rest of the life? Does that mean that I should start getting into relationship and see if the ‘pak tow’ period does work out? Can’t just two souls get together because they knew that they were meant for each other instead of trying out different puzzle pieces?

“To be on a quest is nothing more or less than to become a questioner.”

Life is just so wonderful. I’ve never really thought that fate could work things out so well between two souls wandering on God’s green earth.

There I was last Friday. Friday night to be exact. I was watching a movie and somehow this girl kept popping in my mind for no reason. So I texted her before I fell asleep. I told her that I would like to see her the following day before I fly off in a few days time. By the time I woke up, she hasn’t reply yet. So I called. She was sick so I thought there isn’t much chance for me to see her till I get back.

It was a pretty slow day till evening where I had a swim at a nearby condo. It’s awesome because a bunch of us went. We did lots of stunts and I thought friends how to swim and we managed to chill out in the jacuzzi.

At 8, we decided to have a big feast. We had crabs, fish, pork, chicken and a couple of vegetable dish. After stuffing ourselves, there isn’t much plans on hand and it’s either we hit the clubs or watch ‘The Fast and The Furious : Tokyo Drift’. After the long debate and much delay from the ladies who are taking their own sweet time freshening up. We are left with only clubbing as a choice.

We decided to go to Soda Club at the very last minute. We managed to set foot in front of Soda Club around 1.30am. To tell the truth.. it’s pretty pissing off that the night is not so young anymore. I’m never gonna get a good groove. Out of the blues, somehow we all diverted our attention to breakers and we all ended up having ourselves a drinking session inside.

To make things worst, the coin counter is closed! What the hell? Is the night getting any better? We negotiated quite a bit and they open two tables for us. It didn’t really make my day but it’s better than nothing anyway. Breakers has got curfew so we head back to Soda Club’s entrance to take a few glance. Ahh! This time we’re really going in. I couldn’t be bother much.. I just want to find a place to dance away my anger. LOL. The music ain’t really good. I drank a bit and just try to calm myself down while dancing. The gals did quite an impressive job on the stage. I think to myself, at least there’s something going on. Oh yeah. The girl I mentioned about earlier. Here is where it gets magical. She was still up in my head the whole time. I looked around hoping to see some good actions going on and to my surprise I saw a girl who looks just like her. I texted her immediately and there wasn’t any reaction so I thought to myself it couldn’t possibly be her. She stays on the other end of the town.

Anyway, I continued grooving with my bunch of gals. But with thoughts of her up in my head I just couldn’t resist not finding out if she’s the one. I take my chances, stormed across the room and take a good look at her for myself. Fate was gracious. I grabbed her hand and snatched her right outta the club. We stood outside, both looking shocked and speechless at each others presence. Chatted quite a bit till we got back our senses. To our surprise, we’re standing at the side of the projector screen screening live football match of Mexico vs Angola. No wonder there wasn’t anyone standing there. Feeling embarrassed we quickly went back inside.

I practically kidnapped her the whole time till she left for home. I thank God and her for making my day!

“Never before, has someone moved my heart so much.”

“Some people only ask questions to which they already know the answers. They only accept challenges that they can meet easily and they only drive to reach their destination.”

That phrase makes me sad. Humans are limiting their possibilities more and more everyday. A lot of us are brought up in a secure world. Full of safeguard and protection. (protection is good only at some points) We are all shaped up by what our parents wanted.

We should all realize that there’s so much more imbue in us on the day we’re born. We can achieve much more, reach higher, swim deeper, go further and many more!

“Take that challenge and push your limits!”

I’ve been reading a lot on top 10s of everything! And you’ll be surprised on how top these categories are in our life. Ridiculous!

How does a body with 4 wheels appeal to you? I was checking out top 10 most expensive cars of 2005. They all cost well over $324’500. When can an average person actually afford to get his hands on one?
(tip : marry someone with royal blood)

Who adores rocks more than girls do? Here are a few factors on how to determine how much a rock is worth.
1. Cut is the most important, but it doesn’t refer to the shape of the diamond but its brilliance and proportions.
2. A stone with more clarity will have fewer flaws.
3. Ideal diamonds–except for colored diamonds–should be colorless.
4. The bigger a diamond, the more carats it contains.
And this brings us to a conclusion of Harry Winston ‘Extraordinary Diamond Drop Earrings’ pricing a whopping $8.5 million. It has got 60.1 carats!
(tip : rob a bank with a supermarket trolly)

For those art lovers. Can you believe that Picasso’s painting actually broke the $100 million threshold in 2004 at $104 million? And last year’s most expensive artwork is ‘Venice, the Grand Canal, Looking Northeast from Palazzo Balbi to the Rialto Bridge’, it cost $32.6 million.
(tip : rob a bank with three supermarket trollies)

How much does time matters to you? Most of us thought they still have got plenty of time. Think again! Look back at last christmas. Bet it felt like it was just yesterday. Everything just gone by in a blink of an eye. Keep an eye on your time and see if you can afford to tell time the expensive way. Tour de l’Ile from Vacheron Constantin pricing at $1.5 million! 834 separate parts and 16 complications.
(tip : sell an arm – you only need 1 watch anyway)

Fancy fashion? Top most expensive off the rack men’s suits starts at $2’800 the least and Brioni’s price start at $6000. No matter where the price starts at. When is it our turn?
(tip : stop giving to your loved ones)

If you were rich where would you choose to live and how do you want your mansion to be? William Henry Gates III has got his in Medina, Wash. The house is said to be worth $140 million.
(tip : drop dead and wish that your rebirth entitles you William Henry Gates X)

Like flying? I’ve been flying a lot since mid of last year. Averaging at least twice in a month. So having to fly that much I went to check out top 10 best first class. Cathay Pacific came in first place followed by Singapore Airlines and Thai Airways and surprisingly Malaysian Airlines did come in 4th place. One of the pricing I got is from Cathay Pacific. A first class flight from New York to Hong Kong would set you $15’000 back.
(tip : climb that corporate ladder till you reach Fortune top 500)

Take note that here are just a few top 10s of the world. Like it or not, all these top 10s will continue to hike higher and higher year after year. Exactly when are we ever gonna get close to them?

“If you ain’t upgrading, you’re degrading.”