Some live to eat, some live to love, some live to travel.

I live for friends!

I had a wonderful weekend last week. My friend, cell leader, Angela Looh invited me to witness her wedding ceremony. Angela a girl with outstanding leadership qualities, the girl I’m sure that will be a great wife and mom is tying her knot. The very moment I heard about the great news, it naturally brought this wonderful feeling of joy to my heart.

I had a late night but still I wouldn’t wanna miss this out. So there I was Saturday morning sitting in the church hall. It’s wonderful to be in church every time. It gives me this soothing feeling that is infinitely blissful. I was a little late so I didn’t get to see the bride and bridegroom march in the hall. Would’ve been a sight to be awe at but too bad I missed it. Sitting patiently waiting to take a glance at the beautiful bride and the lucky man she chose I realize that there’s a different love that fills the air that I’m breathing.

After the short speech gave by pastor Julie, it’s time for the lucky couple to exchange vows and wedding rings and best of all, kisses! But what caught me the most is when they say ‘I do’. There is so much love in the air that makes me wanna say ‘I do’ to someone else.

God… show me that ‘someone else’.

To some of my friends who knows I’ve been playing a game called World of Warcraft by Blizzard, this ‘wow’ factor isn’t related to the awesome game.

This ‘wow’ factor I would like to talk about today is related to human. Nope… not about chick’s ‘wow’ factor. This ‘wow’ factor is something really grand that I think everyone in this world should take a moment to embrace it.

Humans are animals that naturally coexist with one another. We tend to share more than just objects in life. We also share feelings, emotion, events and many more. When was the last time you’ve got great news and decided to buy your friends beer, or how about that time when you cried over your friends shoulder over something dreadful? These are the ‘wow’ factors that I want to talk about.

I’m sure everyone would feel honoured when your friends call you out for a dinner celebration over something that is joyous to him/her. Isn’t it just wow to have been invited and be part of the party? Yeah you might be busy with your own stuff but hardly anyone ever turns down a joyous event. You’ll just nonchalantly cancel whatever was on the schedule and say “What the heck, I need a break.” Cheers!!!

But… what if your friend called you up when they are at their worst point of their life? They don’t sound happy, maybe you even heard a whisper of their cry. What would you do? Whoa… I’ve been enough shit for the day and I ain’t gonna keep up with more shit now? Wrong! When your friend actually seek you up for help at their lowest point you should be even happier and have that exact same WOW factor except only in capitals! Why the WOW you may ask? Your friend being at the worst state is not afraid to show themselves in their true colours. And seeking you is just amazing to know that you mean more than just a simple friend to them. Share a tear or two with them… put them back on their feet. Treasure them as much as they treasure you to tell you their sour moments. You’ll be surprised how much your little time can affect a big portion of their life.

Humans are superficial beings. Be true starting from today and treasure everyone who is still around us.

“Seek for happiness infinitely.”

This is mainly to clear up the misleading number I gave out about me being single.

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*Ding*… *click*… This particular MSN pop up has never failed to bring a smile on my face.

I
call that the relic of my life. I believe that in life there is a relic
for everyone. What is this relic that I’m referring to? My kind of
relic is that particular someone that will unconditionally at any given
point of time put a soothing serene smile on your face.

This
relic has caught part of my heart ever since she was first introduced
by my neighbor. Actually I’m sure she has captured more than just my
heart. Lots of people has got a crush on her. This happened way back in
my primary school years. Growing up and getting to know her better has
further proof that she’s definitely a girl to die for. But due to
certain reasons I never make a move on her. Can’t say I regret for not
doing so because I believe it has turn out to be for a better cause.

She’s
quite a witty one. Just by talking to her in person or online has never
failed to entertain me. We both play with words well… it’s like a
battle when we talk. We openly discuss just about anything under the
sun which even makes our conversation even more intriguing.

Just recently, we had a great chat. A long long chat… reasons mainly
due to the cause that I’ve got something that I wanted to tell her but
decided not to after I took a piss break. She couldn’t understand why
and kept pestering me to tell. She even offer to make me feel better so
that I’ll spill it out. Hah! Fat chance… I ain’t sinking down that
easily! I told her that I’m gonna hold on to this till I see her in
person then I’ll tell her. Reason is because it’s really an epic thing
for her to know about it, so nope… not gonna tell her till we get to
see each other. Oh.. added an expiry date on that so I will have to
tell her in 3 years time even though we don’t get to see each other in
person. But I’ll make sure I get to see her in person even though that
means that I’ll have to get tickets for her to fly or vice-versa.

Talked to a friend about me being such a thinker. After a few sentences…

“James, stop thinking like a girl!”

BAM!!! Oh yeah that hits like a truck in my face! I ain’t got nothing to loose.. why should I think like a girl? The questions and scenario that I often play in my head is so unnecessary!

Thanks!

5½ years I’ve been single. Some might say I’m bullshitting here but the word is out and there simply ain’t no benefit for me lying about this matter.

Why? How? Trust me, those are the exact same questions I’m asking myself. And I remember I’ve always answered that I simply wasn’t looking for one, rejected a few relationships here and there, can’t even take of myself well why would I want to get myself more trouble, has got wonderful friends to stand by with, too much choices? Ha ha… indeed those are the few factors why I was single for 5½ years.

The series of fortunate events recently has certainly got me thinking a lot. The thinking has burn down to another conclusion I’ve made up 2 days ago. I’m afraid to love. Whoa! Afraid to love? Nothing from the last breakup hurt me badly that I couldn’t recover, don’t worry, I’m not a fragile piece of crap. So instead I think I’ve been thinking too much.

When I think there’s a possibility to start a relationship, I would push myself to see the future with her by my side. It’s like this amazing imagination of both our lives playing like a series of movie till the end of the day. Through out the movie there will be lots of played events with the both of our emotion involves, family background, wedding day, kids, growing old… yes, I’m one hell of a dreamer. Upon ending the movie with the scrolling credits, I would then evaluate how fair we turn out as a couple. Chances are not to good and I believe that I can find someone who is more compatible.

Oh hell, I can’t go on any further with that story because I know I’m thinking too much and how would anyone in this blardy world knows what is gonna happen without me trying it out except for God Himself? There ain’t no perfect woman and I ain’t flawless too. Few of my friends has already further imply that I should cherish what I can and make the best out of it.

So listening to this clearly tells me that I should start breaking out of this protective imaginary invisible shield that fends off love and just go ahead with what I felt right at that particular moment? Now that will bring justice to my own conclusion to prove that I’m not afraid to love!

“The greatest thing in this world is to love and be loved in return – Moulin Rouge”

Four days again huh. What could happen in this four days part III? (For those who do not know how significant ‘four days’ meant in my life do check back for them.)

Writing this timeline of my life has proved to be harder to put them down in words. The massive changes and significance it brings to my life is beyond words itself.

Above all happiness and joy it has brought me there’s just too much events that made me can’t stop thinking about what I want in the future. I maybe thinking too much… No… I am thinking too much. Had a talk with a friend on that matter and admittedly I do think too much. And all these thinking is making me going crazy. I’ve always believe that thinking is good as long as they prove to improve and upgrade our life.

So what are these thinking that is making me crazy? The things I thought about ranged from all aspects of my life. Career, family, love… but the million dollar question is ‘Will she be the one I want to marry.” Hah, James you can’t be serious right? I’m not sure really, I’m too young to even start thinking about it. Plus my speculated age to get married is 28 and above but recently I kinda push it to 30 and above. Truth is I’m not sure but it has been spinning in my head ever since so it has to be a lil bit serious? Ahh, you might be ‘cut the crap James, who is this girl!’ Too bad I ain’t spilling anything. Those who knows can guess and you most probably will be right. She is no doubt the kind of girl that would make a guy go ‘What more can you ask for from her?’

“Vague future with a determined heart.”